Hello again, it's been a while. I started this blog back in 2012 and really fell in love with blogging and the blogging community in 2014/15 however over the past six months to a year I lost my love for blogging. Stress took over my life and I couldn't find the energy or motivation to sit down and type, posts became few and far between and to be completely honest my heart just wasn't in it. That brings me to today well this morning actually it's currently 00:55am, I'm lying in bed with Gossip Girl playing for the millionth time and I've just gave my blog a whole new look. I've removed all my old posts and I'm going to start again.
So let's start a fresh a lot has happened - not particularly good. After a few months of being on a shaky peg I finally lost my job I say finally because I escaped losing it last year, I finally got made redundant at the end of June and it felt like a long time coming. I worked in retail for a company that wasn't doing well but I liked my job and liked the people I worked with being a person afraid of change I never stepped outside my comfort zone and branched out into another career. Losing my job saw my anxiety creep back into my life not that it ever left but it just became worse and I had the worst panic attack I've had in a long long time.
While being stressed out on the running up to losing my job my beloved cat Sox got ill and exactly a week after losing my job the day I'd dreaded came and we had to get my handsome little man put to sleep. We had Sox for 15 years and I loved him more than I can express, losing him has hit me hard it broke my heart. Gosh I sound like a right Debbie downer don't I?
As I try to pull my life back together and figure out what to do next I'm trying to stay positive, it's hard there are good days and bad but I do have something to look forward to. Next week I go to Disneyland Paris this is a big deal to me a travel virgin who has never left the UK and has a serious love for Disney. Sorry for the rambling post I just wanted to fill you in on what's been happening. I'm going to try and blog more but I'm not going to tie myself down to posting on certain days I'm just going to take it as it comes.
(right okay I really need to stop watching Gossip Girl)